I found myself and I really like me. Hating and jealousy makes me miserble. I say to myself everyday that I am blessed. To some I have a lot and to some a little. I ts a lot to me.
There was a time in life that I had less. I was in a rut but I knew I would have more someday I do now. I can go shoping and do other things. I have a problem though. I can,t seem to walk around my nèighberhood I was met by some dogs one time. I didn,t get or anythng but I have to get enough courage and build up energy and confidence
I don,t know why I have anxiety panic episodes but I know that I will come out of it.
I am in the proçess of organizing or just getting rid of junk. I never thought I would get rid of makeup but here I am sorting and realize some are, old or just to dark or I never use.
After my husband pointed out that the makeup was to dark or dripped under my eyes I decided less is more.
However I also donated or threw away clothes and other things. I still have more work to do. I do this whenever my rooms began to look like a goodwill store. I feel better now and hopefully I won,t shop and replace these thngs that I don,t need.
Good day and here,s to minimum.
I haven,t posted in a while. I could not seem to get it together. However I decided to just write whatever. Please forgive me if I make errors. I decided to take the day off and not to worry about housework or hobbies that I call tools for stress.
I will eventually go out and look in the stores and reward myself with fast food. I do this about once a week. It keeps me from feeling like a recluse that doesn,t know what,s going on in the world. The tv gives me some insight and news.
I have learned not to always bèlieve what I read about the stars. I noticed that these so called beautiful and rich people marriages don,t last long. So I try not to copy them but learn from them.
I think Jada Pinket Smith has a lot of depth to her as well as beàuty and I admire a few others in the news. I admire Hillary Clinton, Kamala Harris, and Nancy Pelosi. Also Michelle Obama. I am reading her book, Becoming Me
Well I have to close now but must tell you that I càn be fragile but become strong and rise above things.
So the yeaŕ is ending. I look at it as anticipating the new year. I have been practing the tools for health. Theu are exercise, grooming like everyday fixing my hair and makeup and eatting healthy, also lose weight.
I play my keyboard to relieve stress. I must confess I look to the stars and enjoy the fashions and different looks. I am a senior citizen but sometimes inside I feel young. Even so I am no Cardi B or black China I can find something in me that is like them. I keep up with the tomes.
I think politics is crazy even though I look at CNN everyday and the news. I realize that America is divertsified nation. I pray that I don,t hate but understand.
Goodby for now and have a prosperous New Yeaŕ.
I have become negative an depressed sometimes panicky. I think it is awful for a person to cry inside feeling helpless.
I tlold myself not to turn on the news today. Iam nervous listening to it. What has my country become , politicins stabing each other, shootings in school, malls, and driveby shootings. Then bo,mbing places or shooting people because they are worshiping i n a place they choose and are a diferent race.
Can I get some feedback to give me hope.bless you .
I usually write serious. However I like fun things like makeup, fashion, and shopping. Yesterday I went to the Dollar store and hamburger stand. It was a major step for me. I hadn,t planned to go, have to do this and that. I just decided to get together in about 20 minutes and went out. I stopped what I call my ocd and it worked.
Now I can stay in and do some things. At the present time I am watching Hoarder. I am taking things out of drawers and throwing them away. At the end of summer -when the weather is cool I will be donating clothes. That show has that effect on me. Well have a great day. I think I,ll play some music. Kelly Clarkson and Aretha Frànklin.
I got a notice that this site was deleted. I see it,s not. Iam glad
She wears the same old dress. She doesn’t have time to fix herself up. She gives all to her husband and her three children. She’s busy cleaning and cooking and taking care of the kids.
They occasionally go out but she never buys anything new to wear or go to the beauty shop or bother with makeup. Her husband has his night out with the boys and she stays home with the kids.
She notices that some of the women take care of their families but they have girls night out and wonder how some of them have the latest hairstyles, makeup and wear cute clothes. She puts those thoughts out because her kids and husband comes first and thinks she would be being frivolous spending money on herself.
However she notices that sometimes her husband has a wandering eye and looks at the other women in the neighborhood and wishes she were more like them. She voices her concerns to a friend. The friend says do something for yourself. You’ll me better for your family if you take care of yourself. The friend takes her to a beauty shop, teaches her to fix her hair and tells her to skimp a little off the household budget. She does that herself. They go shopping and she buys a new dress. Her friend takes her to a beauty shop and she gets one of the latest styles. Her friend teaches her how to fix her hair. Her friend takes her to a drugstore and they pick out makeup for her. She learns how to use makeup.
Her husband takes notice and loves it but what happened to my wife? What caused her to make such a big change in herself he says to a friend? The friend says it’s simple She got tired of wearing the same old dress..