I haven,t posted in a while. I could not seem to get it together. However I decided to just write whatever. Please forgive me if I make errors. I decided to take the day off and not to worry about housework or hobbies that I call tools for stress.
I will eventually go out and look in the stores and reward myself with fast food. I do this about once a week. It keeps me from feeling like a recluse that doesn,t know what,s going on in the world. The tv gives me some insight and news.
I have learned not to always bèlieve what I read about the stars. I noticed that these so called beautiful and rich people marriages don,t last long. So I try not to copy them but learn from them.
I think Jada Pinket Smith has a lot of depth to her as well as beàuty and I admire a few others in the news. I admire Hillary Clinton, Kamala Harris, and Nancy Pelosi. Also Michelle Obama. I am reading her book, Becoming Me
Well I have to close now but must tell you that I càn be fragile but become strong and rise above things.
So the yeaŕ is ending. I look at it as anticipating the new year. I have been practing the tools for health. Theu are exercise, grooming like everyday fixing my hair and makeup and eatting healthy, also lose weight.
I play my keyboard to relieve stress. I must confess I look to the stars and enjoy the fashions and different looks. I am a senior citizen but sometimes inside I feel young. Even so I am no Cardi B or black China I can find something in me that is like them. I keep up with the tomes.
I think politics is crazy even though I look at CNN everyday and the news. I realize that America is divertsified nation. I pray that I don,t hate but understand.
Goodby for now and have a prosperous New Yeaŕ.
I have become negative an depressed sometimes panicky. I think it is awful for a person to cry inside feeling helpless.
I tlold myself not to turn on the news today. Iam nervous listening to it. What has my country become , politicins stabing each other, shootings in school, malls, and driveby shootings. Then bo,mbing places or shooting people because they are worshiping i n a place they choose and are a diferent race.
Can I get some feedback to give me hope.bless you .
I usually write serious. However I like fun things like makeup, fashion, and shopping. Yesterday I went to the Dollar store and hamburger stand. It was a major step for me. I hadn,t planned to go, have to do this and that. I just decided to get together in about 20 minutes and went out. I stopped what I call my ocd and it worked.
Now I can stay in and do some things. At the present time I am watching Hoarder. I am taking things out of drawers and throwing them away. At the end of summer -when the weather is cool I will be donating clothes. That show has that effect on me. Well have a great day. I think I,ll play some music. Kelly Clarkson and Aretha Frànklin.
I got a notice that this site was deleted. I see it,s not. Iam glad
She wears the same old dress. She doesn’t have time to fix herself up. She gives all to her husband and her three children. She’s busy cleaning and cooking and taking care of the kids.
They occasionally go out but she never buys anything new to wear or go to the beauty shop or bother with makeup. Her husband has his night out with the boys and she stays home with the kids.
She notices that some of the women take care of their families but they have girls night out and wonder how some of them have the latest hairstyles, makeup and wear cute clothes. She puts those thoughts out because her kids and husband comes first and thinks she would be being frivolous spending money on herself.
However she notices that sometimes her husband has a wandering eye and looks at the other women in the neighborhood and wishes she were more like them. She voices her concerns to a friend. The friend says do something for yourself. You’ll me better for your family if you take care of yourself. The friend takes her to a beauty shop, teaches her to fix her hair and tells her to skimp a little off the household budget. She does that herself. They go shopping and she buys a new dress. Her friend takes her to a beauty shop and she gets one of the latest styles. Her friend teaches her how to fix her hair. Her friend takes her to a drugstore and they pick out makeup for her. She learns how to use makeup.
Her husband takes notice and loves it but what happened to my wife? What caused her to make such a big change in herself he says to a friend? The friend says it’s simple She got tired of wearing the same old dress..
Some people are in a rut. They can hardly make it. I was once I was taking care of my daughter and myself alone. I could just pay the rent and buy food for,us.
I became so depressed I was ill. Sometimes Iwas able to take her to playland and to the hamburger stand once a month I didn,t give up hope though. I knew things could get better. It did. My income went up. I Wwas even able to,go to
School. These were happy times.
Now I am married since 1988 happily and my daughter is a school teacher I,also have a beautiful granddaugter.
The point I want to make is,never give up. You can make things or your lifes yle or anything you want to. Wishing you peace and happiness.
I hear about wealthy people have fallen from grace Some try to keep being a person to the public that they are not. They are hypocrites I never wanted to do this I knew the danger of this.
I live by Why think of those who have more than you when so many have less. I count my blessings, a warm comfortable home, clothes and food. I like to shop and can buy a few things from the drugstore weekly and the mall. I do have gratitude. There was one time in my life when I couldn,t do this and wore hand me downs.
I guess because of my faith I knew I would get better. My relationships didn,t last long, two very short marriages. This was devastating. Iwas raised that,marriage was forever. However along came a man that made me feel secure and I have been with him for about 30 years. We wore married in 1988
Yes I am blessed and grateful.