So the yeaŕ is ending. I look at it as anticipating the new year. I have been practing the tools for health. Theu are exercise, grooming like everyday fixing my hair and makeup and eatting healthy, also lose weight.
I play my keyboard to relieve stress. I must confess I look to the stars and enjoy the fashions and different looks. I am a senior citizen but sometimes inside I feel young. Even so I am no Cardi B or black China I can find something in me that is like them. I keep up with the tomes.
I think politics is crazy even though I look at CNN everyday and the news. I realize that America is divertsified nation. I pray that I don,t hate but understand.
Goodby for now and have a prosperous New Yeaŕ.
I hear about wealthy people have fallen from grace Some try to keep being a person to the public that they are not. They are hypocrites I never wanted to do this I knew the danger of this.
I live by Why think of those who have more than you when so many have less. I count my blessings, a warm comfortable home, clothes and food. I like to shop and can buy a few things from the drugstore weekly and the mall. I do have gratitude. There was one time in my life when I couldn,t do this and wore hand me downs.
I guess because of my faith I knew I would get better. My relationships didn,t last long, two very short marriages. This was devastating. Iwas raised that,marriage was forever. However along came a man that made me feel secure and I have been with him for about 30 years. We wore married in 1988
Yes I am blessed and grateful.
I can love deeply but I won’t compromise my beliefs and attributes that I know are right for me. I know you should embrace your partner and share in what he does and his beliefs. However if some of those will bring you down I wouldn’t.
One time I thought I was wrong but as I look back, I know now that I would have probably ended up as an alcoholic or addicted to drugs. Now the thought of being with them scares me. I often say that I took the vows seriously but they didn’t. Yes I was married to them.
I have since moved on and have had a long relationship with my present husband. We have been together for about thirty years. I must be doing something right. It hasn’t always been what I want. That is not what I mean. I have compromised. I found out that it takes work, on being with that person, sometimes understanding and patience from both.
Sometimes I have felt love and yes there was a time when I thought the love was gone. However I stayed and it came back. It still needs work but that is just part of life with someone. I attribute my staying is because I was raised in a strict Catholic environment. I have recently let that smart teenage girl back in me to make decisions.
Why didn’t I see you, your kindness, loyalty, and respect. You were there to comfort me when I was hurt, when I felt that I couldn’t be enough for them. Still I was always with a bad boy for the thrills and excitement or is it just that I had to feel needed and that they needed me.
Finally I realized that I couldn’t help them because they would have to become like me and didn’t want to change. For some reason I was scared to become them. So I turned to you but this time I got thrills with love. I asked you how did you change and you said that you were always there I just didn’t look hard enough to see.
So I got the two in one, the good boy and the bad boy. I took a pledge in marriage to you and I’ll be with the two the rest of my life. Thank you for waiting and being there.