Category Archives: relationships

Ending & Beginninģ

So the yeaŕ is ending.  I look at it as anticipating the new year.  I have been practing the tools for health.  Theu are  exercise,  grooming like everyday fixing my hair and makeup and eatting healthy, also lose weight.

I play my keyboard to relieve stress.  I must confess I look to the stars and enjoy the fashions and different looks.  I am a senior citizen but sometimes inside  I feel young.  Even so I am no Cardi B or black China I can find something in me that is like them.  I keep up with the tomes.

I think politics is crazy even though I look at CNN everyday and the news.  I realize that America is divertsified nation.  I pray that I don,t hate but understand.

Goodby for now and have a prosperous New Yeaŕ.

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Knowledge Is Wealth

I hear about wealthy people have fallen from grace  Some try to keep being a person to the public that they are not. They are hypocrites  I never wanted to do this  I knew the danger of this.

I live by Why think of those who have more than you when so many have less.  I count my blessings, a warm comfortable home, clothes and food. I like to shop and can buy a few things from the drugstore weekly and the mall.  I do have gratitude.  There was one time in my life when I couldn,t do this and wore hand me downs.

I guess because of my faith I knew I would get better.  My relationships didn,t last long, two very short marriages. This was devastating. Iwas raised that,marriage was  forever.  However along came a man that made me feel secure and I have been with him for about 30 years.  We wore married in 1988

Yes I am blessed and grateful.

Mistakes I Didn’t Make

I can love deeply but I won’t compromise my beliefs and attributes that I know are right for me. I know you should embrace your partner and share in what he does and his beliefs. However if some of those will bring you down I wouldn’t.

One time I thought I was wrong but as I look back, I know now that I would have probably ended up as an alcoholic or addicted to drugs. Now the thought of being with them scares me. I often say that I took the vows seriously but they didn’t. Yes I was married to them.

I have since moved on and have had a long relationship with my present husband. We have been together for about thirty years. I must be doing something right. It hasn’t always been what I want. That is not what I mean. I have compromised. I found out that it takes work, on being with that person, sometimes understanding and patience from both.

Sometimes I have felt love and yes there was a time when I thought the love was gone. However I stayed and it came back. It still needs work but that is just part of life with someone. I attribute my staying is because I was raised in a strict Catholic environment. I have recently let that smart teenage girl back in me to make decisions.

Good Boy Or Bad Boy

Why didn’t I see you, your kindness, loyalty, and respect.  You were there to comfort me when I was hurt, when I felt that I couldn’t be enough for them.  Still I was always with a bad boy for the thrills and excitement or is it just that I had to feel needed and that they needed me.

Finally I realized that I couldn’t help them because they would have to become like me and didn’t  want to change.  For some reason I was scared to become them.  So I turned to you but this time I got thrills with love.  I asked you how did you change and you said that you were always there  I just didn’t look hard enough to see.

So I got the two in one, the good boy and the bad boy.  I took a pledge in marriage to you and I’ll be with the two the rest of my life.  Thank you for waiting and being there.