I haven,t posted in a while. I could not seem to get it together. However I decided to just write whatever. Please forgive me if I make errors. I decided to take the day off and not to worry about housework or hobbies that I call tools for stress.
I will eventually go out and look in the stores and reward myself with fast food. I do this about once a week. It keeps me from feeling like a recluse that doesn,t know what,s going on in the world. The tv gives me some insight and news.
I have learned not to always bèlieve what I read about the stars. I noticed that these so called beautiful and rich people marriages don,t last long. So I try not to copy them but learn from them.
I think Jada Pinket Smith has a lot of depth to her as well as beàuty and I admire a few others in the news. I admire Hillary Clinton, Kamala Harris, and Nancy Pelosi. Also Michelle Obama. I am reading her book, Becoming Me
Well I have to close now but must tell you that I càn be fragile but become strong and rise above things.
So the yeaŕ is ending. I look at it as anticipating the new year. I have been practing the tools for health. Theu are exercise, grooming like everyday fixing my hair and makeup and eatting healthy, also lose weight.
I play my keyboard to relieve stress. I must confess I look to the stars and enjoy the fashions and different looks. I am a senior citizen but sometimes inside I feel young. Even so I am no Cardi B or black China I can find something in me that is like them. I keep up with the tomes.
I think politics is crazy even though I look at CNN everyday and the news. I realize that America is divertsified nation. I pray that I don,t hate but understand.
Goodby for now and have a prosperous New Yeaŕ.
I have become negative an depressed sometimes panicky. I think it is awful for a person to cry inside feeling helpless.
I tlold myself not to turn on the news today. Iam nervous listening to it. What has my country become , politicins stabing each other, shootings in school, malls, and driveby shootings. Then bo,mbing places or shooting people because they are worshiping i n a place they choose and are a diferent race.
Can I get some feedback to give me hope.bless you .
I usually write serious. However I like fun things like makeup, fashion, and shopping. Yesterday I went to the Dollar store and hamburger stand. It was a major step for me. I hadn,t planned to go, have to do this and that. I just decided to get together in about 20 minutes and went out. I stopped what I call my ocd and it worked.
Now I can stay in and do some things. At the present time I am watching Hoarder. I am taking things out of drawers and throwing them away. At the end of summer -when the weather is cool I will be donating clothes. That show has that effect on me. Well have a great day. I think I,ll play some music. Kelly Clarkson and Aretha Frànklin.
I got a notice that this site was deleted. I see it,s not. Iam glad