Some people are in a rut. They can hardly make it. I was once I was taking care of my daughter and myself alone. I could just pay the rent and buy food for,us.
I became so depressed I was ill. Sometimes Iwas able to take her to playland and to the hamburger stand once a month I didn,t give up hope though. I knew things could get better. It did. My income went up. I Wwas even able to,go to
School. These were happy times.

Now I am married since 1988 happily and my daughter is a school teacher I,also have a beautiful granddaugter.

The point I want to make is,never give up. You can make things or your lifes yle or anything you want to. Wishing you peace and happiness.

Knowledge Is Wealth

I hear about wealthy people have fallen from grace  Some try to keep being a person to the public that they are not. They are hypocrites  I never wanted to do this  I knew the danger of this.

I live by Why think of those who have more than you when so many have less.  I count my blessings, a warm comfortable home, clothes and food. I like to shop and can buy a few things from the drugstore weekly and the mall.  I do have gratitude.  There was one time in my life when I couldn,t do this and wore hand me downs.

I guess because of my faith I knew I would get better.  My relationships didn,t last long, two very short marriages. This was devastating. Iwas raised that,marriage was  forever.  However along came a man that made me feel secure and I have been with him for about 30 years.  We wore married in 1988

Yes I am blessed and grateful.

Youth In A Bottle

The manufactures of the beauty products may promise to erase lines and even wrinkles. They don’t. I looked at a program on this and the Doctors say no.

If the moisturizers and cleansers make you feel better and even look better use them. I think moisturizers give me a glow. Plastic surgery, botox, to erase lines and wrinkles I don’t care for. A lady once told me she would not go through any pain that she didn’t need except for health.

I feel the same way. In fact some people look better as they age. I think sometimes it is from eating right, exercising and generally taking care of oneself. Exercising and proper grooming routines help. This is what I do. If I feel that a cosmetic works for me I stick to that rather than trying everything on the market. If you feel good on the outside it will show on the outside

When I am feeling down about myself I practice affirmations about myself . I think I must like myself because I can have fun alone and do things like going to the mall and even the library and enjoy myself. Hope you have enjoyed these tips, Love
others but don’t forget yourself and take care of yourself.

Another Mind and Place

I look,outside my home and see my neighbors cars and others.  I close my door because I  don,t want to look at strange people pass by    just to have a quicker time to get to whatever.

I hear my neighbor,s music and I almost welcome it.  Sometimes there is peace and quietness. I think about the traffic and the chaos but see a quiet road surrounded by grass and beautiful trees.  The large one across the street looks like a picture.  I see a squirrel running pass it.

I go in the backyard and look at the flowers, the vines running up the fence.  A beautiful red bird perches on the fence.  I know that this is what only God can make and I am fine.





The Maze I am In

I walk through this maze of life and try to find my own mind, some peace among the chaos.  I am reading about Buddha and wonder if I already have these advocates these thoughts in me.  Are they buried with other thoughts from other people.  I think I have changed because others want me to and have.  Deep down I know I haven’t and I may be buried underneath them, my mind, my soul.  Will reading about this foreign thing to me change me.  I don’t think so probably just bring me back to myself and I’ ll have the peace of mind I so badly want.  Peace is truly finding oneself. and maybe coming back.

A State Of Mind, A State Of Being

Yes your state of mind affects what you do and how you perceive of Yourself.
When people criticized me I just knew that they were insecure or jealous.

When I had breast cancer surgery inn 2014 because of it I couldn’t do somethings until my arm healed. The bad part about this is I got into a state of thinking I couldn.t do some things. Truthfully I just realized that I can do somethings that I did before. I did the washing. Somebody else was. However it didn’t work out
because I was depressed and falling into a state of incompetence.
Now I realize that I can and ready to take the world on.

Alone In ACrowd

Ii was in a large crowd where everybody was having fun. However I Felt this void not being close to anybody.
Saturday night was just another night of being alone, nobody to go out with or to be with. I wanted another life.

I thought it was staying that things I didn’t really enjoy when I was with people.
However you came along and gave me love and comfort. I felt the closeness and the void was filled. I am not alone in a crowd.

My Value

My value is worth more than money. There’s no price on it. When I do things for others I feel good. When my soul and heart goes out to someone and I can feel for someone who has something bad happen to them like being robbed or mugged I can’t buy that feeling. I can only give it and help if I can.

A Mother who gives her children her time and understanding whether is talking to them or playing with them is giving something priceless
My daughter was an only child and she expressed the feeling to me or fear of losing me to causes. She read a story about a girl who’s Mother was active in causes and never home. The girl rebelled. My daughter called this kind of Mother a PTA Mother. I smiled almost in awe that my daughter would feel this way;. I assured her that I’d always be there for her and I wouldn’t be this. To tell you the truth I was glad.
I did things with her like going for walks. the park and playing games like monopoly and Trouble I think she really enjoyed this and felt fulfilled because of this. Time spent with her was worth more than money.

Yes I often think of this. My daughter is grown and not in the home now. I just thought of my husband and realize he may need my attention and to do things with him.

This Is Where I am

Where do I go from here. I feel as if I am just being taken apart. I had two surgeries in2014 because of breast cancer. Recently I had two surgeries on my eyes for cataracts. The healing process after breast cancer surgery was very uncomfortable sometimes painful.
The healing process of eye surgery is just uncomfortable and one of my eyes still itch.

One of me feels like I am falling apart at this age and some problem always comes up. Besides that I have suffered with depression for years. Yes I feel like this. However the other side of me feels like I have been given a new life and I have a stronger faith and relationship with God.

I am going to go through a rejuvenation starting with a new makeover. I have already thrown some of my makeup away and bought new. I don’t want to infect my eyes with old. I heard you can get infected by it. I am also trying to lose weight and eating less and staying away from foods that can make my blood sugar up and cancer causing.

This is nice but I know I have to take care of my spirit and live again and not be afraid. I’ll try to look on the positive side.