Tag Archives: depression

This Is Where I am

Where do I go from here. I feel as if I am just being taken apart. I had two surgeries in2014 because of breast cancer. Recently I had two surgeries on my eyes for cataracts. The healing process after breast cancer surgery was very uncomfortable sometimes painful.
The healing process of eye surgery is just uncomfortable and one of my eyes still itch.

One of me feels like I am falling apart at this age and some problem always comes up. Besides that I have suffered with depression for years. Yes I feel like this. However the other side of me feels like I have been given a new life and I have a stronger faith and relationship with God.

I am going to go through a rejuvenation starting with a new makeover. I have already thrown some of my makeup away and bought new. I don’t want to infect my eyes with old. I heard you can get infected by it. I am also trying to lose weight and eating less and staying away from foods that can make my blood sugar up and cancer causing.

This is nice but I know I have to take care of my spirit and live again and not be afraid. I’ll try to look on the positive side.

Dark Clouds & Depression

They engulf me like a thief in the night, the dark clouds of depression.
I stay in this dark place ,almost immobilized, unable to cope or do a thing.
I’m afraid that these thoughts that keep coming to me negative that they are, may lead to insanity. So I sink into my bed trying to put them out of my mind.

I know the beautiful thoughts are there waiting to give me life but I wonder if they will come or is it just a high that may come. I’m afraid but I know this will pass and I will live again